"it's just hair" my mom told me the first time she started chemo and her hair started to fall out. My brother, Greg and I went outside with her on a spring day and grabbed handfuls of hair from her head.. it came out effortlessly and flew away in the wind. There are a lot of things I've forgotten about her cancer but this is one thing that I will never forget. Her hair, literally flying in the wind.
I was amazed by her positive outlook, her ability to let go of something SO personal as her hair and most of all, was in awe of her strength. It couldn't have been easy to find out you had stage 4 cancer, start chemo treatments and loose your hair all within months of one another. It was not easy for my mom.. and SO many more that deal with cancer every day.. so from that very moment, I had a new realization of my own hair.
I've always been in love with my hair. Yes, I will admit it. I'm a little vain of the ol' Darcy locks. It is naturally curly, it can be straight, it's naturally (dirty) blond, and yeah, I like it. I got hair lucky. But when I experienced my moms amazing strength in loosing her own hair, I was quickly reminded that I should consider myself blessed to have hair. SO many people do not. People with alopecia, those that loose their hair to cancer... can you imagine? Havine to wear a hat at all times because hair shelters us from being cold? Or trying to escape the stares of people wondering why you do not have hair?
Last night was the night. I had scheduled a trim but had prepared myself all day that *if* I had enough hair, I was chopping.
And I did.
I could hear my mom saying, "it's just hair" and the tears started rolling. I miss her much more than I would EVER miss my hair.
Good thing one of my best friends (old roomdog and the new pregnant friend I mentioned on Friday) does my hair. She knew to keep cutting even though tears were rolling. And this is the result.
I had forgotten that I had a neck!!
I'll give you a few facts about Locks of Love just in case you or someone who has long hair wants to donate.
* 10" minimum hair length (tip to tip)
* Hair may be colored or permed, but not bleached or chemically damaged
* Hair swept off the floor is not usable (put it into a ponytail and then cut the pony tail off)
* You may pull curly hair straight to measure the minimum 10"
* It takes 6-10 donators to make one wig
* most donators are children
And the best part about last night? I went to church after the chop and a little girl came up to me, told me she liked my new haircut and then told me that she'd like to grow hers out as well. I am crying again just writing this.. this is all in honor of my mom's death but that little girl was inspired enough to help out another person.. praise Jesus!!
I emailed my mom's best friend with pictures of last night's events. Her response?
"It seems the tragedy of your mom's suffering is still continually blessing others."