Wednesday, February 15, 2012

{baby} weight loss wednesday - Debbie Downer edition

Yeah.. not going to post much today. 

I hadn't weighed myself in 2 weeks so today was the day. I stepped on the scale and I was up a pound from 2 weeks ago. I had a goal of getting under a certain number and the scale tipped the opposite way. Blast it. I even reminded myself before I stepped on the scale that no matter what that number said, I was feeling better, an old pair of skinny jeans now fits and my hubby goes on and on about how my body is tightening back up. 

But the scale told me all my hard work this past 2 weeks resulted in an extra pound. 

Even tho I KNOW the drill about how my personality is not defined by the number on that scale.. 
that the number is just ONE indicator out of many that measures my health.. 
that it really doesn't matter what the number is because I feel better..

I know all that but it still sucks.  Hard core sucks.

I've been meaner to my girls, had a bad attitude all morning, mustered up a work-out but wanted to punch Lindsay Brin in the face with all her promises she spouts off during the DVD THAT I HAVE BEEN DOING AND MORE.   Quite frankly want to curl up in the fetal position and take a nap while my girls nap.  

So I'm going to.

After a good cry and some alone time with Jesus. 

I know this post would have been all "Go God" if the scale would have told me I weighed less and that's where I'm having the problem with myself.  I thought I'd blog now so you can see the rawness of today.. this health thing isn't always easy and it especially isn't today. 

So, sorry to be Debbie Downer but I'm off to spend some time with Jesus and battle this bad attitude in my heart. 


Ellemieke said...

Hang in there, sweetie. I know you CAN do it and all the work you have done already WILL pay off!
Big hugs from Holland, xxx Ellemieke

Anonymous said...

Hang in there! I know it sucks to see that number go up on the scale, especially when you're expecting something totally different ... but the fact that your clothes are fitting differently speaks volumes about all your hard work paying off! Something encouraging to remember is that muscle weighs more than fat. Hope you feel better soon; we're all rooting for you!

Shannon said...

Hey friend, I am thankful for the realness and rawness of this post. I also had a step on the scale day that was a positive number instead of a negative one.

Praying for you and am cheering you on all the way.


Kat said...

So sorry! I know the feeling, I have been there. Darn scales are really frustrating. I found that, when I got down to around my goal weight, I fluctuated alot, and I even would fit into smaller clothes with out losing more weight! So try to go by how your clothes feel (so much easier said than done!!)
Big hugs to you! xoxo

Kelsey said...

I'm hitting a wall too! I haven't weighed myself, but I'm feeling these same negative feelings. Hang in there! I keep saying "tomorrow is a new day, thank you Jesus."

Jewel said...

You should be proud of yourself for remembering to go to Jesus...I probably wouldn't have...I would've continued w/a bad attitude. So kudos to you!

Anonymous said...

I feel your pain!

I'm also going through this, trying to lose baby weight. When I have a week where it stays the same or goes up, I get all mad and angry too. Even if my husband says that it's probably muscle building and that I look great. I try to go with how my clothes fit, but that number on the scale really seems important anyway.

Nikki said...

You're amazing. You LOOK amazing. And Jesus loves you and is pleased that you are honoring Him by making your body a holy temple for Him to live in. Love you!

Nicole G said...

You look great!! So cute!

Linz said...

As others are, glad you posted your honesty Darce! I have to wonder too, you're doing such a great job with eating right, toning and remember you're getting some MUSCLE back! That's a good thing! Maybe this extra pound is an indicator of extra strength girl...muscle weighs more but in reality we look better WITH it! I think you're doing awesome....keep your head up! =) And you're gonna rock tomorrow too...even though I've heard your testimony a couple times, it will be even better this time, I know it!

Dina said...

I love you! Thank you for being honesty and bearing your heart to your readers.