Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Confessions of a Scrapaholic...

Mara is the coolest!!! She sent me a RAK (random act of kindness) and I got it yesterday...

It was seriously like Christmas. There were so many things in there that I have had in my hand at scrap stores and have put it back because I am a cheapo. Like those supa sweet KI Icicles. Oh, and see that yellow "D"? Can't wait to use my "D"!!! So, I plan to "Pay it Forward" with my own cool RAK soon.. stay tuned.

I scrapped for the rest of the night because I had new loot. Came up with this LO...

and I wasn't very happy with the turn-out. Okay, my sister gets mad if I ever say anything negative about my pages because she always likes them and says that maybe people are thinking that I'm looking for positive comments in return.. kinda an attention thing. Nope, that isn't me. I'm just being honest. So let's get real...

This picture and the journaling (written by my MOM!!!) mean so much to me that I totally stressed about this page. I've got this supa huge goal of getting pubbed sometime this year and I am totally stressing about it. I put a ton-o effort into pages and then am not happy with them. I guess I feel like I'm loosing my spunk lately. This is a HOBBY. I need to ENJOY it.. and I do for the most part. Until I put amazingly stupid pressure on myself. I think I get caught up in how much Pea praise I get or if my page gives me warm fuzzy's or if I think the page is worthy of submitting. Darin and I had a huge talk about this and more last night and it all comes down to the feeling of whether or not I feel accepted. I guess I just always assumed that by this time in my life I would get over the stupid acceptance thing. No such luck. I won't dwell on this any longer.. I want my blog to be a fun place but it also needs to be an outlet for some of the ol' feelings I need to express.

Oh, and for clarification.. yesterday wasn't my b-day! =) I was just really feeling old with our bleacher seat purchase. I'm actually 25 and a half.. YIKES!!! My b-day is July 27th. Mark it on your calendars cuz I'm in LOVE with my b-day! If you comment today, let me know what your b-day is too!!!

17 comments:

Angel With an Attitude said...

OHHHHHH!!! SOOOOO jealous!! what a stash!!!

and today is my HALF BIRTHDAY!!! yay for half birthdays!!! your half birthday is coming up!!!

realy is july 18th!!

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Emily said...

how fun, Darcy--my birthday is July 17--10 days before yours! I love being a July/summer baby!

Mara said...

April 13th - Also a good day :)

SO glad that you liked the RAK. I had fun doing it! And I am glad to see the picture b/c I forgot what I put in it. HAHA. I stink.

You're LO today is amazing. I love that you put so much thought into it. You'd really make your Mom proud. I know that for sure!!

Hugs!!

Elizabeth said...

ok.. so totally jealous of your pile of scrapola!!
(my husband refers to all as craploa, and my crapfolio(for paper)etc...he supports my hobby..yes, but just does NOT get it!!
I am with you on the whole acceptance thing..!
as far as layouts... I finally realized why I am doing it.. for me, my son, my family, my future generations.. I am always hard on myself.. and then my Nonscrapping friends are totally amazed.. my scrapping friends not so much.. cherish what you are good at=)
but it is still great to get props!!
I am my own worst critic.. in everything!!
Yay for my bday!!!..i love bdays.. and i am happy that mine is in 4days!!
Jan 22nd....I will be an old maid!!

Hailey said...

what a great RAK!!! I am very jealous as well! and I feel ya on the stressin out about LO, just last night I finished on, decided I hated it, and ripped it all up *minus the pic's!*. I have never done that before! but you are right, it is good to remember that this is a HOBBY ;-)

oh, and my B-day is Sept. 24, I will be turning the big 2-4! its my lucky year!

Kat said...

i totatlly can relate to the pressure of havign a perfect lo for those extra special moments. and for me, those are the lo's i never like as much........... we should start a support group about how all lo's are good and we have to accept that and remember its a hobby and its FUN!!!!! ; )
birthdays are my absolute favorite. i'll be the big 2 -5 on april 17th baby. 4 months away (minus a day, not like i'm counting.......)

Niki L said...

This LO is my favorite one of all that you've posted on your blog!! I think it looks perfect and it's so special to have the hand-written note from your mom!

Oh yeah, birthdays: Mine is August 20, a day I believe is a National Holiday, I start a count down every year!!

RACHEL =) said...

HOLY MOLY, LOOK AT ALL THAT LOOT!! WOW, NOW THAT'S A RAK 1/2!!!! MARA ROCKS!!!!!!!! =)

I am with you 100% on the whole acceptance thing... I think everyone feels that, it's hard not to. As long as we remember that we are scrapping for US and for our family and friends to look back on someday... Amaaaaaazing layout of your parents!! Very sweet, very beautiful! I wish so desperately I had something my dad had written on... you are lucky to come across that journal, I bet you cherish it every day!!! =)

RACHEL =) said...

See, there's me babbling on!! My b-day is June 9th, I'll be 27... yikes!!!!!

christy said...

Darce, i recognize the flowers on your most recent LO ... raegan had them in her flowergirl basket for your wedding! i still find them randomly around the apartment and in my car. am i right, or is that just a coincidence?

april 4th - i'll be 25
february 3rd - raegan will be 4!

jes said...

DARCY- ok I am letting you know that I fullfilled my TAG, so enjoy. I also tagged some worthy opponents. I can not believe someone so fun and loving and BEAUTIFUL and talented and warm and supportive and cute and giving and so you, could be looking for acceptance, that is so OFF to me. If your not happy with sho you are, there is NO hope for the rest of us. (ok that was dramatic, but I wanted to get my point across) ps I know squat about LO's and scrapping, but I think yours are pretty incredible and well thought through, Not that my opinion counts, but i would publish you anyday.
jes
ps I dont think I am having anymore birthdays. I like 28. I am staying here for a while. ;)

{ brooke } said...

oh, darcy! ah! i love your honesty. and honestly, i so much feel the same. when i post something on 2ps, i practically hold my breath until someone posts. and then i check it about a bajillion times. yes, i just said that on the web. now everyone knows! yikes. but it's true. and i get upset. and i remind myself that i do it for me, not for everyone else. right? ah. i know how you feel, sweet girl! and i'm right there with you!

okay, my birthday is sept 7th. can't wait! :)

Jill said...

I love this lo, I praised ya on 2 peas earlier :) I do think everyone always feels a little like they don't like their own work, and other people LOVE it. Same thing with pictures of myself! I can always point out things that I think are wrong, with scrapping or photos, I've just learned to accept my work, some lo's are my favorites and some are just, well, DONE!

My b-day is September 16th. 1st anniversary of my 29th b-day is this year.

monica said...

I'm so jealous, I love RAK's!!! Love the LO girlie, and for all you guys stressing about getting older, I have less than 7 months till I turn 30!! Yikes!!! Augsust 29, D-Day!!!

island girl said...

I totally loved this layout when I saw it on 2peas..

I'm with ya on the bday thing too...haha..I feel celebrating all month is really the only appropriate way to honor a bday...so watch out peeps...Feb is right around the corner...bbwaahhh!!

shelby said...

wow! that is quite the RAK! How awesome :) I am so much the same about needing acceptance and really hoping that people like my work. I was always really disappointed when no one looked at my layouts, that is one thing that I am trying to fix this year...to love my work no matter what!

My birthday is January 9th...just got another year older! eek!

Felicia said...

You are one lucky girl! That RAK is awesome. And your layout is beautiful. But I know how you feel I want to be excepted too. I get so sad when I post on 2Peas and get no praise. So I just call my good buddy Monica and make her post. Now that is a true friend. =) I always have to remind myself that it's a hobby and I would scrap even if no one ever praised my work.

I'll be turning the Dirty 30 this year. =( May 27th~Vegas here I came!! =)